The way to go...

Here's the way you're supposed to do it. You're supposed to know yourself. And when you know yourself, you will discover what you want. And by the way, it's not enough to know what you don't want - because anyone knows that. You need to know what it is you want to do and what you want out of life. But also...what is it that you want to bring to life, to the people you love, and to the world at large.

And it may be that you have to start from absolute scratch. It may well be that you have to start getting to know yourself all over again.